I vacillate between establishing, and then following, a routine or of engaging in activities at random, my system being to use a stack of index cards. I’ll decide on one, try it briefly, and then abandon it. Try the other. End up with the same result. It’s quite annoying.
The issue is one of avoidance. It’s natural. You avoid that which causes you stress.
So what causes me stress?
Trying to do it all. Straining to do it perfectly. Self-consciously about doing it in front of others, or laying myself open to censure, criticism, even comment. All in my background.